6 Months, 2 weeks and 6 days. I have been with Tallulah that long, and somehow it feels as though I have known her my entire life. I feel like I was waiting for her and she finally showed up!
Life is getting better and better. Tallulah is simply perfect. She rarely cries and when she does its for very good reason. She laughs all the time and her smile literally stops people in their tracks. We've really been enjoying her! Jonathan is head over heels for his little girl and even Finn can't help but want to be near her....well not close enough for her to grab his fur!
She is smiling, laughing, rolling, squirming everywhere (not quite crawling). She LOVES eating...she gets really excited to see her food being made. Don't show her a soon unless you plan on letting her use it.
We recently bought our London home and moved into it the end of September. We love it, however with a 6 month old baby, nothing is getting done. No painting, no organizing and hardly any cleaning. We did however manage to get the Christmas Stuff up!
Movies T has seen: Harry Potter 6, Zombieland (slept through both), and Couples Retreat. She's going to like the movies just like Jonny does. The two of them zoning out on the TV is adorable...scary but adorable. We're going to see Cousins Griff and Taiter Bug and their wonderful Mommies this weekend! Can't wait! She loves being around other babies so I am sure she will learn a lot this weekend.
We had a playdate with Holden and his parents and its safe to say Tallulah is in LOVE. Holden had to teach her how to use the Jolly Jumper though.
Being a mom is AMAZING. I want to have 4 little Tallulahs in my life....but we'll see if thats realistic! I am dreading going back to work already. I can't imagine leaving her...I really want to raise my daughter!
My super napper should be waking up soon!
I'm a mom...so cool.
Melis
Friday, November 27, 2009
Friday, August 7, 2009
Sucked into a time vortex
I do NOT know where the past 12 weeks went to!
My baby is 3 months old today. I am SHOCKED. When I was pregnant the time seemed to crawl by and it took FOREVER. I seriously thought the anticipation would KILL me. Now; however; the days blur together and I find myself waking up to a baby that grew while I was foolish enough to close my eyes for a few brief hours.
I am still loving motherhood. Having Tallulah, or rather being blessed with her, has changed me in ways I could have never predicted. She fills me with so much love and excitement I just might burst at the seems! I have been humbled at how precious and beautiful new life, well all life, really is. I look at Tallulah and I am captivated by her expressions, her huge smile, but the thing that amazes me the very most is how much she looks like her father.I love him, I love her and now I have a little family!
I wish I could say that the transition into parenthood has been flawless...but that would be a lie. It took me 6 weeks to learn how to calm and comfort Tallulah and get her to sleep (actually it took Kim and Christa 6 weeks to make it to London to infuse their wisdom). Jonathan and I am doing an off kind of dance trying to figure out our roles as parents, as spouses, as best friends. I think the reason its hard for us is simply because we've always come so easily to each other, Love and our relationship has always been as easy and natural as breathing - we'll get our groove back.
Tallulah is getting so strong and pulls herself up from lying on her back to standing already...the girl will be walking in no time...scary. She has massive projectile poops that would frighten even an elephant and she sleeps wonderfully.
Finn is also still adapting - I feel so guilty over his loss of attention, what happens when child number TWO comes along, how do parents balance it all out?
Time to have a glass of wine before bed!
Melis
My baby is 3 months old today. I am SHOCKED. When I was pregnant the time seemed to crawl by and it took FOREVER. I seriously thought the anticipation would KILL me. Now; however; the days blur together and I find myself waking up to a baby that grew while I was foolish enough to close my eyes for a few brief hours.
I am still loving motherhood. Having Tallulah, or rather being blessed with her, has changed me in ways I could have never predicted. She fills me with so much love and excitement I just might burst at the seems! I have been humbled at how precious and beautiful new life, well all life, really is. I look at Tallulah and I am captivated by her expressions, her huge smile, but the thing that amazes me the very most is how much she looks like her father.I love him, I love her and now I have a little family!
I wish I could say that the transition into parenthood has been flawless...but that would be a lie. It took me 6 weeks to learn how to calm and comfort Tallulah and get her to sleep (actually it took Kim and Christa 6 weeks to make it to London to infuse their wisdom). Jonathan and I am doing an off kind of dance trying to figure out our roles as parents, as spouses, as best friends. I think the reason its hard for us is simply because we've always come so easily to each other, Love and our relationship has always been as easy and natural as breathing - we'll get our groove back.
Tallulah is getting so strong and pulls herself up from lying on her back to standing already...the girl will be walking in no time...scary. She has massive projectile poops that would frighten even an elephant and she sleeps wonderfully.
Finn is also still adapting - I feel so guilty over his loss of attention, what happens when child number TWO comes along, how do parents balance it all out?
Time to have a glass of wine before bed!
Melis
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
My heart is stretched out!
I can't believe in 2 short days Tallulah will be 6 weeks old! The past 6 weeks have been a BLUR! I feel like I waited for her forever and already its hard to remember what being pregnant was like.
I guess sleep deprivation can make time either stand still or fly by...perhaps a combo of both. For me - I was hit by how quickly she is changing as she outgrew my favourite newborn outfit...who would've thought this would be so devastating!
Right now she is starting to squirm working towards her 10pm feeding...so I am typing at the speed of light. I do everything (except for process thoughts and speech) at the speed of light now...Laundry, dishes, showering, eating etc.
I finally feel like I have found my purpose in life....and I didn't even know I was missing it! I have been very lucky that my moods have been relatively stable...sure I get weepy when I sleep for 2 hours in a night...but she has been such an easy baby...easy and beautiful.
I know I have said it before but I am madly in love....I had no idea love like this existed.
Baby boob monster is stirring to eat....here we go again, and I couldn't be happier!!!
Maybe we'll be Melis and John plus 20..hmmmm...
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Welcome Princess Tallulah!
She's here!! She's really really here!!!
On May 7, 2009 I become a proud momma to Tallulah Dawn Abrosimoff. Born REALLY quickly (and intensely) into the world at 12:50pm. Just in time for me to get a lunch tray ( I was starving).
Words can't begin to describe how in LOVE I am with her....she's been here 10 days and I can't imagine my life ever having a purpose before her. Yeah, I was SHOCKED when I watched her come out and there was no penis...I was SURE I was having a boy..She must have known how much I like surprises!
If you've followed my blog thus far, you'll know that I was unsure what to expect about the Labour and delivery thing...and I still honestly, can't prepare anyone else as to what to expect. I think the best advice would be to go in prepared for ALL scenarios and having no expectations expect to work hard and have a healthy baby. I do know that women know their bodies, and that is the best tool you will have...listening to the instincts. Had I not been forceful, Tallulah would've been born in the Hallway...
Breastfeeding is rewarding, interesting, hard, annoying and wonderful all at the same time. Now that I know I can create, grow, BIRTH and feed another human, I have a Superhero complex...meaning that I know that the worlds REAL superheroes are Mothers. Who else could operate on 2 hours sleep while learning how to to care, feed and maintain a new baby while organizing a move, and dealing with the most rediculous highs and lows of hormones...
Jonathan has been my sidekick for sure - not the Robin kind of sidekick...he's more like Mr.Incredible. I could NOT do this without him....nor would I want to I guess!
About the boobs - I FINALLY have mine, FINALLY!
I need some sleep, so I'm going to go rest! My little Piranha will be needing her meal very shortly!!!
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
34.5 Weeks
My goodness its getting close....too close!!!
I am in Chatham for the week. We came down for Easter, then I just stayed. I needed a change of scenery from Toronto and being around my family is actually really nice. I haven't been home for this length of times in a few years, so I am actually getting to VISIT people.
I also don't spend any money here, so thats a plus.
Today is Wednesday - which means I am off to the Farmers Market to see my father in law and buy some meat!!! If that doesn't sound country, what does.
My Strong Family baby shower is this weekend in Chatham, I am excited. We get to eat yummy Thai Food. I'll have to post a picture soon because I am positively HUGE right now, and I still have 5 weeks to go. Scary.
People keep commenting that the baby doesn't have any room right now - but I personally think its ME that has no room left....I am full out waddling....SEXXXXXXY.
Yesterday my mom and I went to Wal MArt to buy all the items I'll need for the Hospital bag and returning home (AKA the worlds largest feminine products) sorry to gross you out. I now understand that I will have no dignity for quite some time. SUPER.
Okay I should go return emails - being in Dealtown for 4 days meant no internet! I felt like a pioneer!!! Everyone keep your fingers crossed I don't go into Labour here in Chatham!
I am in Chatham for the week. We came down for Easter, then I just stayed. I needed a change of scenery from Toronto and being around my family is actually really nice. I haven't been home for this length of times in a few years, so I am actually getting to VISIT people.
I also don't spend any money here, so thats a plus.
Today is Wednesday - which means I am off to the Farmers Market to see my father in law and buy some meat!!! If that doesn't sound country, what does.
My Strong Family baby shower is this weekend in Chatham, I am excited. We get to eat yummy Thai Food. I'll have to post a picture soon because I am positively HUGE right now, and I still have 5 weeks to go. Scary.
People keep commenting that the baby doesn't have any room right now - but I personally think its ME that has no room left....I am full out waddling....SEXXXXXXY.
Yesterday my mom and I went to Wal MArt to buy all the items I'll need for the Hospital bag and returning home (AKA the worlds largest feminine products) sorry to gross you out. I now understand that I will have no dignity for quite some time. SUPER.
Okay I should go return emails - being in Dealtown for 4 days meant no internet! I felt like a pioneer!!! Everyone keep your fingers crossed I don't go into Labour here in Chatham!
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Thursday - 4th day of project freedom.
OKAY - so maybe not totally free, its a gorgeous day outside and I am in the house while 2 gentlemen install the carpeting on the stairs. I am hoping they will be done soon enough - my condo is too small for the carpet people AND me and Finn in here.
So this is officially my first week away from work. I guess this week counts as vacation, but whatever. All I care about is that I am free, free, free. I even made Muffins to celebrate. This is a huge deal. At this point in my life, its safe to say that I am more successful at making babies than I am at BAKING. No joke. Jordyn got ALL of the talent in that area, I just can't seem to bake. So for the muffins, I fought all of my instincts and they actually turned out pretty well.
Today I might try for some cookies.
I need to get out of the house and take Finnegan for a walk - lets hope these carpet guru's finish up soon, its SO LOUD.
So now I am almost 33 weeks pregnant. I can't believe it. If i make it full term, only 7 more weeks to go. There is so much to do in that 7 weeks. Sell our place, move to London, without fully moving to London, set up the nursery there, be in Toronto to deliver the baby, close on our house then move. All while learning to breast feed and deal with no sleep. Should be a good time. Oh yes, in all of that, Jonathan's birthday AND my birthday. Something tells me our 27th birthdays are going to be very memorable.
I had no idea carpet installation was so friggen loud. I might be turning into the HULK any minute.
I need to fins something to eat..Banana's and yogurt perhaps?? mmmmm...... I love fruit, can't get enough!!!
Off I go - to do...umm..nothing.
Taa-Taa
Melis
So this is officially my first week away from work. I guess this week counts as vacation, but whatever. All I care about is that I am free, free, free. I even made Muffins to celebrate. This is a huge deal. At this point in my life, its safe to say that I am more successful at making babies than I am at BAKING. No joke. Jordyn got ALL of the talent in that area, I just can't seem to bake. So for the muffins, I fought all of my instincts and they actually turned out pretty well.
Today I might try for some cookies.
I need to get out of the house and take Finnegan for a walk - lets hope these carpet guru's finish up soon, its SO LOUD.
So now I am almost 33 weeks pregnant. I can't believe it. If i make it full term, only 7 more weeks to go. There is so much to do in that 7 weeks. Sell our place, move to London, without fully moving to London, set up the nursery there, be in Toronto to deliver the baby, close on our house then move. All while learning to breast feed and deal with no sleep. Should be a good time. Oh yes, in all of that, Jonathan's birthday AND my birthday. Something tells me our 27th birthdays are going to be very memorable.
I had no idea carpet installation was so friggen loud. I might be turning into the HULK any minute.
I need to fins something to eat..Banana's and yogurt perhaps?? mmmmm...... I love fruit, can't get enough!!!
Off I go - to do...umm..nothing.
Taa-Taa
Melis
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
31.5 weeks!
My brain is mush. Other than that life is good.
We had our baby party (instead of shower) in London this last Saturday and it was awesome! I was so happy and touched to see all the people there and how excited they were for Jonathan and I. It so nice to feel like this baby is so loved already and its not even here yet!
Friday is my last day of work. I know its a bit earlier than I thought I would leave, but I need my rest and my body is telling me its time. I'll use this time to wrap my head around becoming a mom and getting everything ready...okay okay so I'll bake and eat a lot, but hey, thats relaxing right?
We had our Prenatal session. Thank goodness we opted for the in-home private classes cause man-alive there were something we learned about I wouldn't had dealt well with in a group. Jonathan is going to be GREAT at helping me through the tough stuff...and feeding me immediately afterwards! LOL
I'll be sure to write more - as I'll have the time!!!
Happy Tuesday!
Melis
We had our baby party (instead of shower) in London this last Saturday and it was awesome! I was so happy and touched to see all the people there and how excited they were for Jonathan and I. It so nice to feel like this baby is so loved already and its not even here yet!
Friday is my last day of work. I know its a bit earlier than I thought I would leave, but I need my rest and my body is telling me its time. I'll use this time to wrap my head around becoming a mom and getting everything ready...okay okay so I'll bake and eat a lot, but hey, thats relaxing right?
We had our Prenatal session. Thank goodness we opted for the in-home private classes cause man-alive there were something we learned about I wouldn't had dealt well with in a group. Jonathan is going to be GREAT at helping me through the tough stuff...and feeding me immediately afterwards! LOL
I'll be sure to write more - as I'll have the time!!!
Happy Tuesday!
Melis
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Sweet Sweet Spring Time!
Its a gorgeous, beautiful wonderful Thursday today. I am HAPPY.
I literally feel like I am coming out of hibernation from the winter. I felt tucked away like a dirty pregnant secret! LOL We haven't seen enough people over the winter, so now my neighbours are seemingly shocked to see me waddling outside walking Finnegan....I am semi-whale like. The song Baby Beluga has a new meaning to me!
This Saturday is our Baby Shower / Bash in London! I am so so excited. I might need some assistance in looking presentable but I know it will be a great time. I am finding it harder and harder to believe that in 9 weeks (if the baby is right on time) I will be meeting my new son or daughter. SO WEIRD. I seriously can't even wrap my head around the enormity of it - but I am sure it will sink, oh say, I dunno, between 6 cm dilated and begging for drugs.
I have been really struggling at work the past 4 weeks or so. Sitting is a very bad position for me. My last day is coming up very soon though so I know I can make it. Knowing me I will get bored of being home after a short time, we'll have to see what happens! I have so much guilt associated with not being at work everyday - which I know is insanely stupid.
I managed to score a preg-parking spot today, it was the highlight of my morning for sure. I am fighting falling asleep.......I need to go outside for a bit and soak up some sun!
OH - whoever said Braxton Hicks are painless was a complete F*%$ing LIAR. Also - if ever planning to get pregnant in the near future - don't have a Japanese or LOW bed. Very bad idea for getting in and out of it.....
Have a great day!
I literally feel like I am coming out of hibernation from the winter. I felt tucked away like a dirty pregnant secret! LOL We haven't seen enough people over the winter, so now my neighbours are seemingly shocked to see me waddling outside walking Finnegan....I am semi-whale like. The song Baby Beluga has a new meaning to me!
This Saturday is our Baby Shower / Bash in London! I am so so excited. I might need some assistance in looking presentable but I know it will be a great time. I am finding it harder and harder to believe that in 9 weeks (if the baby is right on time) I will be meeting my new son or daughter. SO WEIRD. I seriously can't even wrap my head around the enormity of it - but I am sure it will sink, oh say, I dunno, between 6 cm dilated and begging for drugs.
I have been really struggling at work the past 4 weeks or so. Sitting is a very bad position for me. My last day is coming up very soon though so I know I can make it. Knowing me I will get bored of being home after a short time, we'll have to see what happens! I have so much guilt associated with not being at work everyday - which I know is insanely stupid.
I managed to score a preg-parking spot today, it was the highlight of my morning for sure. I am fighting falling asleep.......I need to go outside for a bit and soak up some sun!
OH - whoever said Braxton Hicks are painless was a complete F*%$ing LIAR. Also - if ever planning to get pregnant in the near future - don't have a Japanese or LOW bed. Very bad idea for getting in and out of it.....
Have a great day!
Friday, February 27, 2009
Updates - I am getting terrible at this!
So - 28 weeks. Only 12 more to go!
I can't believe how fast time is flying by!
I have been so busy lately! We got back from Dawn's birthday Vegas Trip on Monday night - and I was lucky enough to bring back the Flu. the flu while preggers and on a flight is TORTURE - but I lived.
We had such a great time. Went to Studio 54, saw Cirque's KA, which was mind blowing! Walked forever and saw all but the Venetian (cause I got the flu..booo) and I had the BEST time with a great group of gals!
Jonathan has been getting me back to healthy ALL week - so here's hoping today is the last of feeling crappy. Our baby is getting very large and active...I am still thinking BOY, but we'll have to wait and see! We have a baby shower (party at a bar in London) fast approaching, and Jonathan is starting his work term on MOnday....these next few weeks will vanish, and I am SURE I will be shocked how fast I am holding our baby covered in poop and boob juice!
I'll try to post more pictures soon! I look like a squatty shack!
Back to work - for now!
I can't believe how fast time is flying by!
I have been so busy lately! We got back from Dawn's birthday Vegas Trip on Monday night - and I was lucky enough to bring back the Flu. the flu while preggers and on a flight is TORTURE - but I lived.
We had such a great time. Went to Studio 54, saw Cirque's KA, which was mind blowing! Walked forever and saw all but the Venetian (cause I got the flu..booo) and I had the BEST time with a great group of gals!
Jonathan has been getting me back to healthy ALL week - so here's hoping today is the last of feeling crappy. Our baby is getting very large and active...I am still thinking BOY, but we'll have to wait and see! We have a baby shower (party at a bar in London) fast approaching, and Jonathan is starting his work term on MOnday....these next few weeks will vanish, and I am SURE I will be shocked how fast I am holding our baby covered in poop and boob juice!
I'll try to post more pictures soon! I look like a squatty shack!
Back to work - for now!
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Relaxation
This past weekend in Montreal with my wonderful Valentine was GREAT. Sure we didn't sight see as much as we should have but I was fat and Cold - so it worked out!
We had such a nice time relaxing and taking it easy. Yesterday we spent the day in London looking at places then had a family dinner on family day no less at a Thai Restaurant..it was great.
Friday we leave for Vegas for our all-girls 30th Birthday extravaganza for Dawn's birthday! I can't wait! I hope there's not a lot of walking involved, I am starting to waddle...not attractive!
My Large Belly is stealing my large boobs thunder...for now anyway...sheesh!
I hope there is a lot to eat in Vegas!
; )
We had such a nice time relaxing and taking it easy. Yesterday we spent the day in London looking at places then had a family dinner on family day no less at a Thai Restaurant..it was great.
Friday we leave for Vegas for our all-girls 30th Birthday extravaganza for Dawn's birthday! I can't wait! I hope there's not a lot of walking involved, I am starting to waddle...not attractive!
My Large Belly is stealing my large boobs thunder...for now anyway...sheesh!
I hope there is a lot to eat in Vegas!
; )
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Fighting over Pregnancy Parking isn't very "motherly"
I actually scored a pregger-parking spot today at my Lunch time trip to Loblaws.
Sweet victory...UNTIL....
I was getting out of my car - and another woman pulled up in an SUV in the next preggers spot beside me and hopped out of her car - no baby no bump, but I thought hey...who am I to judge. So we were almost walking side by side into the store when she turns towards me and says "you should be ashamed you took up a mothers parking spot" ...I smiled and said "I am expecting but I am so flattered that even with my bump exposed you couldn't tell! Thanks! You made my day!" I was actually thinking the same thing about her - but I didn't care b/c I rightfully parked in a great spot for once. She apparently thought I was being very rude and responded with "You don't have to be a bitch about it". I was a little shocked, but my hunger made me sharp, so I say "You only look to be about 5-6 months along yourself, don't worry these mood swings will pass, I was in your shoes last week."
Apparently she wasn't pregnant (especially not 5-6 months) and was speaking as a mother with a toddler...which she evidently didn't have with her so I don't know why she took up prime parking anyway...and was offended by my comments.
I figured she was being so rude b/c she was in fact pregnant and I felt her pain...NOPE...chic was just being a bitch. From her rant I gathered that she assumed I was some young inconsiderate youth (she was all of 30 herself) taking up family parking.
Needless to say, she totally killed my "OMG I found a preggers parking spot" buzz and I shopped fast to make sure I beat her to the parking lot (I've had my car keyed before, it was sad).
If I was a guy I would've peed on her door handles...Either way my Chocolate Croissant got me through it!
I will park in prime-preggers parking again in the next 3.5 months and I won't let anyone kill the buzz!!!
MONTREAL THIS WEEKEND!
Sweet victory...UNTIL....
I was getting out of my car - and another woman pulled up in an SUV in the next preggers spot beside me and hopped out of her car - no baby no bump, but I thought hey...who am I to judge. So we were almost walking side by side into the store when she turns towards me and says "you should be ashamed you took up a mothers parking spot" ...I smiled and said "I am expecting but I am so flattered that even with my bump exposed you couldn't tell! Thanks! You made my day!" I was actually thinking the same thing about her - but I didn't care b/c I rightfully parked in a great spot for once. She apparently thought I was being very rude and responded with "You don't have to be a bitch about it". I was a little shocked, but my hunger made me sharp, so I say "You only look to be about 5-6 months along yourself, don't worry these mood swings will pass, I was in your shoes last week."
Apparently she wasn't pregnant (especially not 5-6 months) and was speaking as a mother with a toddler...which she evidently didn't have with her so I don't know why she took up prime parking anyway...and was offended by my comments.
I figured she was being so rude b/c she was in fact pregnant and I felt her pain...NOPE...chic was just being a bitch. From her rant I gathered that she assumed I was some young inconsiderate youth (she was all of 30 herself) taking up family parking.
Needless to say, she totally killed my "OMG I found a preggers parking spot" buzz and I shopped fast to make sure I beat her to the parking lot (I've had my car keyed before, it was sad).
If I was a guy I would've peed on her door handles...Either way my Chocolate Croissant got me through it!
I will park in prime-preggers parking again in the next 3.5 months and I won't let anyone kill the buzz!!!
MONTREAL THIS WEEKEND!
Monday, February 9, 2009
Monday - ironic that it rhymes with funday
Not even 2 o'clock in the afternoon and I am ready to go home. I am SO TIRED. I thought your second trimester was supposed to be all energy and nice skin and feeling great....LIES.
On the more positive side I can't get over the force our baby already has - its going to be an active boy or girl. I swear the baby moves every single time I hear or dance to "all the sing ladies" by Beyonce. This, of course, is just a theory...
I saw my sisters and my Mom this weekend, which was very nice. I love how different and individual my sisters are. They're both having very different reactions to becoming Aunts to this baby! Jordyn is obsessed with touching my belly, feeling something (which is funny cause the baby didn't move once when Jordy was around). And Dawn is all about telling EVERYONE we come across that I am pregnant and she is excited. I really really like being the middle sister - it's fun to see the dynamics of my older and younger sisters. I love them to bits.
I am also finding people seem to be very nice and loving towards me (even strangers) just because I can reproduce...its very exciting! I am surprised at the number of women that feel like they are treated less than kindly during their pregnancies... although I also think its acceptable to kick people in the shins when they are rude.
We are off to Montreal this weekend for a romantic getaway....I have a feeling I'll eat a lot of Chocolate and sleep as much as humanly possible....how romantic! LOL
I feel like we're finally in the home stretch...25 weeks down - 15 weeks to go!
I want cake.
On the more positive side I can't get over the force our baby already has - its going to be an active boy or girl. I swear the baby moves every single time I hear or dance to "all the sing ladies" by Beyonce. This, of course, is just a theory...
I saw my sisters and my Mom this weekend, which was very nice. I love how different and individual my sisters are. They're both having very different reactions to becoming Aunts to this baby! Jordyn is obsessed with touching my belly, feeling something (which is funny cause the baby didn't move once when Jordy was around). And Dawn is all about telling EVERYONE we come across that I am pregnant and she is excited. I really really like being the middle sister - it's fun to see the dynamics of my older and younger sisters. I love them to bits.
I am also finding people seem to be very nice and loving towards me (even strangers) just because I can reproduce...its very exciting! I am surprised at the number of women that feel like they are treated less than kindly during their pregnancies... although I also think its acceptable to kick people in the shins when they are rude.
We are off to Montreal this weekend for a romantic getaway....I have a feeling I'll eat a lot of Chocolate and sleep as much as humanly possible....how romantic! LOL
I feel like we're finally in the home stretch...25 weeks down - 15 weeks to go!
I want cake.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
I need to "Exerise the Demons."
I am having more mood swings than Mariah Carey. I am a seriously spazzy lady.
The interesting part is that if anyone would try to point this out to me, I would more than likely rip off their stupid arms and beat them with the bloody stumps.
I literally feel like I am possessed. I can see myself spewing harsh words like a she-devil but i have no off switch - until the guilt and remorse kicks in....then I am all mopey and sad because I prefer to be a nice person. Sometimes I get so angry so quickly - that I can actually feel my body shaking while I turn green like HULK. Normally Jonathan would be impressed by my super powers, but lately I KNOW he is wishing we didn't have a loft, but rather a large house with separate wings...like a castle (Dungeon would be an added bonus).
If you see something about "Pregnant Lady shoots up Mall because she got hot while shopping and someone bumped into her"...it was more than likely me...
I hope this child can't absorb my negative energy...I'll be birthing a HULK baby, I just know it....super.
I know my glass is half full - but right now I feel like: Screw the F'ing glass full of what? MILK? give me some wine damn it and get the hell out of my way...do you want to DIE??
We are going to Montreal next weekend for Valentines Day and the weekend after that I am off to Vegas with a perfect bunch of ladies to Celebrate my Sister Dawn's (and my surrogate sister Jen's) 30th birthdays....I hope I don't ruin both trips for my traveling companions...if I do they probably had it coming.....; (
Yesterday I couldn't figure out why I was mad at Jonathan - then in a BRIEF moment of clarity, I realized I was mad at something he MIGHT do in the future, during labour and delivery....thats totally not fair, but thank goodness he wasn't home until AFTER I figured out that I was pure Evil...
Finnegan is still in my good books...Love him.
The interesting part is that if anyone would try to point this out to me, I would more than likely rip off their stupid arms and beat them with the bloody stumps.
I literally feel like I am possessed. I can see myself spewing harsh words like a she-devil but i have no off switch - until the guilt and remorse kicks in....then I am all mopey and sad because I prefer to be a nice person. Sometimes I get so angry so quickly - that I can actually feel my body shaking while I turn green like HULK. Normally Jonathan would be impressed by my super powers, but lately I KNOW he is wishing we didn't have a loft, but rather a large house with separate wings...like a castle (Dungeon would be an added bonus).
If you see something about "Pregnant Lady shoots up Mall because she got hot while shopping and someone bumped into her"...it was more than likely me...
I hope this child can't absorb my negative energy...I'll be birthing a HULK baby, I just know it....super.
I know my glass is half full - but right now I feel like: Screw the F'ing glass full of what? MILK? give me some wine damn it and get the hell out of my way...do you want to DIE??
We are going to Montreal next weekend for Valentines Day and the weekend after that I am off to Vegas with a perfect bunch of ladies to Celebrate my Sister Dawn's (and my surrogate sister Jen's) 30th birthdays....I hope I don't ruin both trips for my traveling companions...if I do they probably had it coming.....; (
Yesterday I couldn't figure out why I was mad at Jonathan - then in a BRIEF moment of clarity, I realized I was mad at something he MIGHT do in the future, during labour and delivery....thats totally not fair, but thank goodness he wasn't home until AFTER I figured out that I was pure Evil...
Finnegan is still in my good books...Love him.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
I don't know what's worse!
I am trying to decide whats worse.
I keep hearing these stories about "easy labour" like it could ever be EASY, however I hear stories like "I didn't have time for the epidural, from start to finish it was, like, three hours" or how about " three pushes and she was out!"
Make me barf. Like anyone is that lucky! I can only hope.
Then you have the other stories..."it only took 42 days and I ripped from my crotch to my ears" or the ever-so-lovely "His shoulders got stuck so they just went In and pulled him out".
I am hoping I sneeze and it just happens....
So therefore, I don't know whats worse hearing about...."easy labours" (aka the kind that most women do NOT experience, but yet you still hope and pray for it) OR the drawn out ultra painful experience that is most likely the norm, but also the most dreaded.....
From now on I want to only hear stories about how good the drugs are...THATS IT!
I keep hearing these stories about "easy labour" like it could ever be EASY, however I hear stories like "I didn't have time for the epidural, from start to finish it was, like, three hours" or how about " three pushes and she was out!"
Make me barf. Like anyone is that lucky! I can only hope.
Then you have the other stories..."it only took 42 days and I ripped from my crotch to my ears" or the ever-so-lovely "His shoulders got stuck so they just went In and pulled him out".
I am hoping I sneeze and it just happens....
So therefore, I don't know whats worse hearing about...."easy labours" (aka the kind that most women do NOT experience, but yet you still hope and pray for it) OR the drawn out ultra painful experience that is most likely the norm, but also the most dreaded.....
From now on I want to only hear stories about how good the drugs are...THATS IT!
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
BABY CAKES
This baby likes CAKE...well the baby wants cake, ice-cream, Chocolate Chip Muffins, etc etc. OKAY - so its all me, but its FOR the baby.
I had another appointment this morning...it was interesting. I am growing so fast. Don't worry I am actually growing in gerth, not maturity or anything, so I should be safe! So today I learned, eyt again, something very interesting. So you know how women are always warned that Vericose Veins are a possibility during or after pregnancy....there's a little more to it than that. The little bastard veins AREN'T just possible in your legs....they are possible anywhere, I MEAN ANYWHERE. This means that where ever these "devil-veins" decide to appear, you swell and it HURTS. I know this first hand, consider yourself warned.
Today - while trudging through the snow I was able to feel the new weight of my growing body. I have to be honest, I am not liking getting wheezy while I "prance" up steps. I still prance oh yes - now I just breath and wheeze like a 600 lb woman who hasn't left her room is 5 years and lives off of a mere 14 000 Calories a day....you know what I am talking about. I am not even THAT big yet - its interesting to see what the last 3 months will bring me...maybe I'll finally qualify for one of those nifty motorized scooters!!!!! To find the silver lining, I had a friend tell me during my very sick and miserable first Trimester that I would never feel more beautiful than I would while I was pregnant. I almost punched her then, but now she couldn't be more right. I don't know if its due to my nice skin, the fact that I can now eat, or perhaps just feeling so incredibly feminine...but I feel GORGEOUS (for now) okay okay, its because of my boobs! I have never had big boobs, but i DO NOW SUCKERS! I lovingly call them my porn-boobs, and I am trying to enjoy my time with them....soon they will become a juice factory and eventually go down to my barely there size.
Life is good, I can't complain....I am very happy and excited today!
I had another appointment this morning...it was interesting. I am growing so fast. Don't worry I am actually growing in gerth, not maturity or anything, so I should be safe! So today I learned, eyt again, something very interesting. So you know how women are always warned that Vericose Veins are a possibility during or after pregnancy....there's a little more to it than that. The little bastard veins AREN'T just possible in your legs....they are possible anywhere, I MEAN ANYWHERE. This means that where ever these "devil-veins" decide to appear, you swell and it HURTS. I know this first hand, consider yourself warned.
Today - while trudging through the snow I was able to feel the new weight of my growing body. I have to be honest, I am not liking getting wheezy while I "prance" up steps. I still prance oh yes - now I just breath and wheeze like a 600 lb woman who hasn't left her room is 5 years and lives off of a mere 14 000 Calories a day....you know what I am talking about. I am not even THAT big yet - its interesting to see what the last 3 months will bring me...maybe I'll finally qualify for one of those nifty motorized scooters!!!!! To find the silver lining, I had a friend tell me during my very sick and miserable first Trimester that I would never feel more beautiful than I would while I was pregnant. I almost punched her then, but now she couldn't be more right. I don't know if its due to my nice skin, the fact that I can now eat, or perhaps just feeling so incredibly feminine...but I feel GORGEOUS (for now) okay okay, its because of my boobs! I have never had big boobs, but i DO NOW SUCKERS! I lovingly call them my porn-boobs, and I am trying to enjoy my time with them....soon they will become a juice factory and eventually go down to my barely there size.
Life is good, I can't complain....I am very happy and excited today!
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Its le Poop
Every winter I am somehow forgetful of how I survived the winter previous. Normally I would go Tobogganing, Ice Skating or Skiing - seeing as how the weather has been perfect - however none of those are baby friendly sports. so I am BORED.
I am needing to find ways to entertain myself. Today while at work (yes I know....get over it) I decided I will through myself into organizing everything we need for Baby Phillip Miller. We know which Stroller and Car Seat we'd like - now I need to pick a matress, baby carrier, highchair and Breast Pump.
I was excited until I got into the Breast Pump. There is NOTHING glamorous about being attached to a boob sucking machine that "expresses your milk". Ladies and Gentlemen...I am a Dairy Farm. Wait - is human milk considered Dairy?? Well whatever it is, I will be farming that. Maybe I can hook up this scary contraption while watching Oprah? Just a thought - and what a funny picture that would make!
So all in all I still have NO idea what to do about a mattress, OR a Breast Pump..
I am hoping and praying that I am magically infused with all of the knowledge I need once this baby is born...keep your fingers crossed!
I am needing to find ways to entertain myself. Today while at work (yes I know....get over it) I decided I will through myself into organizing everything we need for Baby Phillip Miller. We know which Stroller and Car Seat we'd like - now I need to pick a matress, baby carrier, highchair and Breast Pump.
I was excited until I got into the Breast Pump. There is NOTHING glamorous about being attached to a boob sucking machine that "expresses your milk". Ladies and Gentlemen...I am a Dairy Farm. Wait - is human milk considered Dairy?? Well whatever it is, I will be farming that. Maybe I can hook up this scary contraption while watching Oprah? Just a thought - and what a funny picture that would make!
So all in all I still have NO idea what to do about a mattress, OR a Breast Pump..
I am hoping and praying that I am magically infused with all of the knowledge I need once this baby is born...keep your fingers crossed!
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Obama Day - I mean Tuesday
Happy Cold January Tuesday!
Today is the day the world gets to witness a new President take charge. I think its all great and everything, but seeing as how this blog is about my baby, I will keep it relevant.
It has occurred to me that this day and this President (Obama) will be a page-marker in History. Much like for my generation JFK was a page marker in our recent-past history (our parents History). Sure Abe Lincoln was historical - but that was,like, forever ago right? One day this Canadian Child of mine will ask about Obama, why he was such a big deal etc etc, and I will more than likely reply with "I was pregnant with You during his inauguration.." which will respond to eye-rolling or some gesture to mark annoyance. Its true though, this day, like all memorable days, will be mixed with a personal significance to everyone. And in 30 or so years when I might be a grandmother - or something like that, I can look back and remember a time that the first non-pure-white President ran the White House, and it will more than likely seem like ages ago to my Children, or their Children.
Like I said, its a Historical Marker.
To make something clear - I am proud to be Canadian through and through. I do believe we are a very separate entity from the USA ( I was just there, trust me, we are SO different), but anytime any one person or group of people work to make change or work to make anything better, I am excited. I am hopeful that good things are coming for the world in general. I feel like Humans need to to sit back, reflect, bury many "hatchets" and move along already. Fighting and drama is exhausting, believing in something positive, something hopeful doesn't seem all that bad.
I hope that when I meet this baby of ours I can find some peace knowing we brought him or her into a world we can be proud of and believe in.
Have a great day!
Melis
Today is the day the world gets to witness a new President take charge. I think its all great and everything, but seeing as how this blog is about my baby, I will keep it relevant.
It has occurred to me that this day and this President (Obama) will be a page-marker in History. Much like for my generation JFK was a page marker in our recent-past history (our parents History). Sure Abe Lincoln was historical - but that was,like, forever ago right? One day this Canadian Child of mine will ask about Obama, why he was such a big deal etc etc, and I will more than likely reply with "I was pregnant with You during his inauguration.." which will respond to eye-rolling or some gesture to mark annoyance. Its true though, this day, like all memorable days, will be mixed with a personal significance to everyone. And in 30 or so years when I might be a grandmother - or something like that, I can look back and remember a time that the first non-pure-white President ran the White House, and it will more than likely seem like ages ago to my Children, or their Children.
Like I said, its a Historical Marker.
To make something clear - I am proud to be Canadian through and through. I do believe we are a very separate entity from the USA ( I was just there, trust me, we are SO different), but anytime any one person or group of people work to make change or work to make anything better, I am excited. I am hopeful that good things are coming for the world in general. I feel like Humans need to to sit back, reflect, bury many "hatchets" and move along already. Fighting and drama is exhausting, believing in something positive, something hopeful doesn't seem all that bad.
I hope that when I meet this baby of ours I can find some peace knowing we brought him or her into a world we can be proud of and believe in.
Have a great day!
Melis
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
I'm in a SCRUBS episode....kind of
So I figured it out - My brain is working more like and episode of Scrubs. As I am trying to pay attention, my mind leads to another scenario.
For example: Listening to my boss talk about me having to deal with a ridiculous client. I SHOULD be thinking about my plan of action as it relates directly to work....INSTEAD I find myself day dreaming about running a bulldozer through his office. Luckily for everyone involved I don't know where to find a Bulldozer. I am almost positive I could drive one....but where would I find one to rent?
I keep having very vivid dreams about having this baby. Their not scary - I would describe them more as weird, or "special" ; )
Last night I had a dream that the baby could speak to me before it was born - which was a little freaky but it made life easier! haha.
I am so pooped. Winter has taken a lot out of me..I am ready for the SPRING!
For example: Listening to my boss talk about me having to deal with a ridiculous client. I SHOULD be thinking about my plan of action as it relates directly to work....INSTEAD I find myself day dreaming about running a bulldozer through his office. Luckily for everyone involved I don't know where to find a Bulldozer. I am almost positive I could drive one....but where would I find one to rent?
I keep having very vivid dreams about having this baby. Their not scary - I would describe them more as weird, or "special" ; )
Last night I had a dream that the baby could speak to me before it was born - which was a little freaky but it made life easier! haha.
I am so pooped. Winter has taken a lot out of me..I am ready for the SPRING!
Friday, January 9, 2009
Friday - thank GOD!
Well -
Another week mixed with joyful new experiences for Jonathan and I - as well as the daily stress I am finding harder and harder to ignore from the "other" parts of my life. I am hoping some clarification comes soon. I have 78 more days of work - this literally seems like torture to me. On the bright side though I am LOVING being pregnant now!
I feel so much better and I am showing but just not enough to feel like a beached whale. Its exciting. The baby is so fidgety and full of energy it makes me really really happy. Jonathan can finally feel the little him or her through my stomach. Its great. I took out my Belly Ring this week also - I know I know - not a huge deal to others but to me it was. I was hanging on to that belly ring for as long as possible. I know this sounds ridiculous but it is as though that small piece of jewelery on my stomach (that got me grounded 3 times as a teenager) represented who I was - who I am, freedoms and all. Now I am becoming a MOM - someone totally different, and yet the same. Its mind blowing.
Even now its hard for me to comprehend what both of my parents were like as teens / children / newlyweds without kids. I guess before Dawn, Jordyn and I - they were normal everyday people. Go figure!
I am not concerned at ALL about Jonathan's transformation into fatherhood - its something he has been ready for for a long long time. Plus - Since I was 14 Jonathan has proven that he exceeds in EVERYTHING that he attempts (yes its annoying as hell somedays). I see so much love in that wonderful man - and I know he will remain my rock - the coolest man I know and plus - he'll have his drums back as soon as we move - so I am confident he will survive fairly unscathed.
Oh yeah - I seriously HATE tax time. I am stressed to the max - I need a friggen break. I am thinking that its impossible for any middle-class person to ever get ahead in life. I personally blame the liberals - money stealing, tax raising buggers. I think a move out of Ontario would work....hmmmmm....
You know who else sucks - accountants! LOL
OK back to work that I despise!
Melis
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Back to "normal" life!
The Holidays are over - Florida was great, Christmas was great and of course we were spoiled rotten as usual! Somehow I know this will change next year when the baby comes!
So this is day 2 back at work - and so far so good, no major melt downs on my part. I think I needed the break. I am going to hope and pray these last 4 months of work FLY by! I am fully aware taking care of a newborn will be more work than here - but its meaningful work, and thats what I live for.
I am really looking forward to our move - sure I don't know where that will take us - but I am excited!
I am 20 weeks this week - the halfway mark! I had an ultrasound this morning - it was amazing. Jonathan actually got to come to this one because he wasn't on work term - it was awesome to see his reactions. I do fear a tiny bit that he may be giving me too much credit for this baby miracle thingy. He keeps saying " its so cool you're doing this - I love you're pregnant body etc etc." that makes me feel wonderful and lovely and all those good things....lets just see how he feels when I lactate all over him and haven't showered in a few days while being covered in baby puke and being extremely sleep deprived! HAHAHAHA - Poor man has no idea whats coming his way. My goodness having a baby with Jonathan is making me fall even more in love with him.
I am really looking forward to being closer to family and friends. Of course we have some wonderful friends here that I can't imagine not seeing all the time - but I am starting to really feel the distance. Michelle came home for the Holidays and I only got to see her for a day! I really love that lady and would enjoy seeing a LOT more of her!
Anyway I should get back to work! I have a countdown calendar to make!
XOXOXO
Melis
So this is day 2 back at work - and so far so good, no major melt downs on my part. I think I needed the break. I am going to hope and pray these last 4 months of work FLY by! I am fully aware taking care of a newborn will be more work than here - but its meaningful work, and thats what I live for.
I am really looking forward to our move - sure I don't know where that will take us - but I am excited!
I am 20 weeks this week - the halfway mark! I had an ultrasound this morning - it was amazing. Jonathan actually got to come to this one because he wasn't on work term - it was awesome to see his reactions. I do fear a tiny bit that he may be giving me too much credit for this baby miracle thingy. He keeps saying " its so cool you're doing this - I love you're pregnant body etc etc." that makes me feel wonderful and lovely and all those good things....lets just see how he feels when I lactate all over him and haven't showered in a few days while being covered in baby puke and being extremely sleep deprived! HAHAHAHA - Poor man has no idea whats coming his way. My goodness having a baby with Jonathan is making me fall even more in love with him.
I am really looking forward to being closer to family and friends. Of course we have some wonderful friends here that I can't imagine not seeing all the time - but I am starting to really feel the distance. Michelle came home for the Holidays and I only got to see her for a day! I really love that lady and would enjoy seeing a LOT more of her!
Anyway I should get back to work! I have a countdown calendar to make!
XOXOXO
Melis
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