I am trying to decide whats worse.
I keep hearing these stories about "easy labour" like it could ever be EASY, however I hear stories like "I didn't have time for the epidural, from start to finish it was, like, three hours" or how about " three pushes and she was out!"
Make me barf. Like anyone is that lucky! I can only hope.
Then you have the other stories..."it only took 42 days and I ripped from my crotch to my ears" or the ever-so-lovely "His shoulders got stuck so they just went In and pulled him out".
I am hoping I sneeze and it just happens....
So therefore, I don't know whats worse hearing about...."easy labours" (aka the kind that most women do NOT experience, but yet you still hope and pray for it) OR the drawn out ultra painful experience that is most likely the norm, but also the most dreaded.....
From now on I want to only hear stories about how good the drugs are...THATS IT!
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
BABY CAKES
This baby likes CAKE...well the baby wants cake, ice-cream, Chocolate Chip Muffins, etc etc. OKAY - so its all me, but its FOR the baby.
I had another appointment this morning...it was interesting. I am growing so fast. Don't worry I am actually growing in gerth, not maturity or anything, so I should be safe! So today I learned, eyt again, something very interesting. So you know how women are always warned that Vericose Veins are a possibility during or after pregnancy....there's a little more to it than that. The little bastard veins AREN'T just possible in your legs....they are possible anywhere, I MEAN ANYWHERE. This means that where ever these "devil-veins" decide to appear, you swell and it HURTS. I know this first hand, consider yourself warned.
Today - while trudging through the snow I was able to feel the new weight of my growing body. I have to be honest, I am not liking getting wheezy while I "prance" up steps. I still prance oh yes - now I just breath and wheeze like a 600 lb woman who hasn't left her room is 5 years and lives off of a mere 14 000 Calories a day....you know what I am talking about. I am not even THAT big yet - its interesting to see what the last 3 months will bring me...maybe I'll finally qualify for one of those nifty motorized scooters!!!!! To find the silver lining, I had a friend tell me during my very sick and miserable first Trimester that I would never feel more beautiful than I would while I was pregnant. I almost punched her then, but now she couldn't be more right. I don't know if its due to my nice skin, the fact that I can now eat, or perhaps just feeling so incredibly feminine...but I feel GORGEOUS (for now) okay okay, its because of my boobs! I have never had big boobs, but i DO NOW SUCKERS! I lovingly call them my porn-boobs, and I am trying to enjoy my time with them....soon they will become a juice factory and eventually go down to my barely there size.
Life is good, I can't complain....I am very happy and excited today!
I had another appointment this morning...it was interesting. I am growing so fast. Don't worry I am actually growing in gerth, not maturity or anything, so I should be safe! So today I learned, eyt again, something very interesting. So you know how women are always warned that Vericose Veins are a possibility during or after pregnancy....there's a little more to it than that. The little bastard veins AREN'T just possible in your legs....they are possible anywhere, I MEAN ANYWHERE. This means that where ever these "devil-veins" decide to appear, you swell and it HURTS. I know this first hand, consider yourself warned.
Today - while trudging through the snow I was able to feel the new weight of my growing body. I have to be honest, I am not liking getting wheezy while I "prance" up steps. I still prance oh yes - now I just breath and wheeze like a 600 lb woman who hasn't left her room is 5 years and lives off of a mere 14 000 Calories a day....you know what I am talking about. I am not even THAT big yet - its interesting to see what the last 3 months will bring me...maybe I'll finally qualify for one of those nifty motorized scooters!!!!! To find the silver lining, I had a friend tell me during my very sick and miserable first Trimester that I would never feel more beautiful than I would while I was pregnant. I almost punched her then, but now she couldn't be more right. I don't know if its due to my nice skin, the fact that I can now eat, or perhaps just feeling so incredibly feminine...but I feel GORGEOUS (for now) okay okay, its because of my boobs! I have never had big boobs, but i DO NOW SUCKERS! I lovingly call them my porn-boobs, and I am trying to enjoy my time with them....soon they will become a juice factory and eventually go down to my barely there size.
Life is good, I can't complain....I am very happy and excited today!
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Its le Poop
Every winter I am somehow forgetful of how I survived the winter previous. Normally I would go Tobogganing, Ice Skating or Skiing - seeing as how the weather has been perfect - however none of those are baby friendly sports. so I am BORED.
I am needing to find ways to entertain myself. Today while at work (yes I know....get over it) I decided I will through myself into organizing everything we need for Baby Phillip Miller. We know which Stroller and Car Seat we'd like - now I need to pick a matress, baby carrier, highchair and Breast Pump.
I was excited until I got into the Breast Pump. There is NOTHING glamorous about being attached to a boob sucking machine that "expresses your milk". Ladies and Gentlemen...I am a Dairy Farm. Wait - is human milk considered Dairy?? Well whatever it is, I will be farming that. Maybe I can hook up this scary contraption while watching Oprah? Just a thought - and what a funny picture that would make!
So all in all I still have NO idea what to do about a mattress, OR a Breast Pump..
I am hoping and praying that I am magically infused with all of the knowledge I need once this baby is born...keep your fingers crossed!
I am needing to find ways to entertain myself. Today while at work (yes I know....get over it) I decided I will through myself into organizing everything we need for Baby Phillip Miller. We know which Stroller and Car Seat we'd like - now I need to pick a matress, baby carrier, highchair and Breast Pump.
I was excited until I got into the Breast Pump. There is NOTHING glamorous about being attached to a boob sucking machine that "expresses your milk". Ladies and Gentlemen...I am a Dairy Farm. Wait - is human milk considered Dairy?? Well whatever it is, I will be farming that. Maybe I can hook up this scary contraption while watching Oprah? Just a thought - and what a funny picture that would make!
So all in all I still have NO idea what to do about a mattress, OR a Breast Pump..
I am hoping and praying that I am magically infused with all of the knowledge I need once this baby is born...keep your fingers crossed!
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Obama Day - I mean Tuesday
Happy Cold January Tuesday!
Today is the day the world gets to witness a new President take charge. I think its all great and everything, but seeing as how this blog is about my baby, I will keep it relevant.
It has occurred to me that this day and this President (Obama) will be a page-marker in History. Much like for my generation JFK was a page marker in our recent-past history (our parents History). Sure Abe Lincoln was historical - but that was,like, forever ago right? One day this Canadian Child of mine will ask about Obama, why he was such a big deal etc etc, and I will more than likely reply with "I was pregnant with You during his inauguration.." which will respond to eye-rolling or some gesture to mark annoyance. Its true though, this day, like all memorable days, will be mixed with a personal significance to everyone. And in 30 or so years when I might be a grandmother - or something like that, I can look back and remember a time that the first non-pure-white President ran the White House, and it will more than likely seem like ages ago to my Children, or their Children.
Like I said, its a Historical Marker.
To make something clear - I am proud to be Canadian through and through. I do believe we are a very separate entity from the USA ( I was just there, trust me, we are SO different), but anytime any one person or group of people work to make change or work to make anything better, I am excited. I am hopeful that good things are coming for the world in general. I feel like Humans need to to sit back, reflect, bury many "hatchets" and move along already. Fighting and drama is exhausting, believing in something positive, something hopeful doesn't seem all that bad.
I hope that when I meet this baby of ours I can find some peace knowing we brought him or her into a world we can be proud of and believe in.
Have a great day!
Melis
Today is the day the world gets to witness a new President take charge. I think its all great and everything, but seeing as how this blog is about my baby, I will keep it relevant.
It has occurred to me that this day and this President (Obama) will be a page-marker in History. Much like for my generation JFK was a page marker in our recent-past history (our parents History). Sure Abe Lincoln was historical - but that was,like, forever ago right? One day this Canadian Child of mine will ask about Obama, why he was such a big deal etc etc, and I will more than likely reply with "I was pregnant with You during his inauguration.." which will respond to eye-rolling or some gesture to mark annoyance. Its true though, this day, like all memorable days, will be mixed with a personal significance to everyone. And in 30 or so years when I might be a grandmother - or something like that, I can look back and remember a time that the first non-pure-white President ran the White House, and it will more than likely seem like ages ago to my Children, or their Children.
Like I said, its a Historical Marker.
To make something clear - I am proud to be Canadian through and through. I do believe we are a very separate entity from the USA ( I was just there, trust me, we are SO different), but anytime any one person or group of people work to make change or work to make anything better, I am excited. I am hopeful that good things are coming for the world in general. I feel like Humans need to to sit back, reflect, bury many "hatchets" and move along already. Fighting and drama is exhausting, believing in something positive, something hopeful doesn't seem all that bad.
I hope that when I meet this baby of ours I can find some peace knowing we brought him or her into a world we can be proud of and believe in.
Have a great day!
Melis
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
I'm in a SCRUBS episode....kind of
So I figured it out - My brain is working more like and episode of Scrubs. As I am trying to pay attention, my mind leads to another scenario.
For example: Listening to my boss talk about me having to deal with a ridiculous client. I SHOULD be thinking about my plan of action as it relates directly to work....INSTEAD I find myself day dreaming about running a bulldozer through his office. Luckily for everyone involved I don't know where to find a Bulldozer. I am almost positive I could drive one....but where would I find one to rent?
I keep having very vivid dreams about having this baby. Their not scary - I would describe them more as weird, or "special" ; )
Last night I had a dream that the baby could speak to me before it was born - which was a little freaky but it made life easier! haha.
I am so pooped. Winter has taken a lot out of me..I am ready for the SPRING!
For example: Listening to my boss talk about me having to deal with a ridiculous client. I SHOULD be thinking about my plan of action as it relates directly to work....INSTEAD I find myself day dreaming about running a bulldozer through his office. Luckily for everyone involved I don't know where to find a Bulldozer. I am almost positive I could drive one....but where would I find one to rent?
I keep having very vivid dreams about having this baby. Their not scary - I would describe them more as weird, or "special" ; )
Last night I had a dream that the baby could speak to me before it was born - which was a little freaky but it made life easier! haha.
I am so pooped. Winter has taken a lot out of me..I am ready for the SPRING!
Friday, January 9, 2009
Friday - thank GOD!
Well -
Another week mixed with joyful new experiences for Jonathan and I - as well as the daily stress I am finding harder and harder to ignore from the "other" parts of my life. I am hoping some clarification comes soon. I have 78 more days of work - this literally seems like torture to me. On the bright side though I am LOVING being pregnant now!
I feel so much better and I am showing but just not enough to feel like a beached whale. Its exciting. The baby is so fidgety and full of energy it makes me really really happy. Jonathan can finally feel the little him or her through my stomach. Its great. I took out my Belly Ring this week also - I know I know - not a huge deal to others but to me it was. I was hanging on to that belly ring for as long as possible. I know this sounds ridiculous but it is as though that small piece of jewelery on my stomach (that got me grounded 3 times as a teenager) represented who I was - who I am, freedoms and all. Now I am becoming a MOM - someone totally different, and yet the same. Its mind blowing.
Even now its hard for me to comprehend what both of my parents were like as teens / children / newlyweds without kids. I guess before Dawn, Jordyn and I - they were normal everyday people. Go figure!
I am not concerned at ALL about Jonathan's transformation into fatherhood - its something he has been ready for for a long long time. Plus - Since I was 14 Jonathan has proven that he exceeds in EVERYTHING that he attempts (yes its annoying as hell somedays). I see so much love in that wonderful man - and I know he will remain my rock - the coolest man I know and plus - he'll have his drums back as soon as we move - so I am confident he will survive fairly unscathed.
Oh yeah - I seriously HATE tax time. I am stressed to the max - I need a friggen break. I am thinking that its impossible for any middle-class person to ever get ahead in life. I personally blame the liberals - money stealing, tax raising buggers. I think a move out of Ontario would work....hmmmmm....
You know who else sucks - accountants! LOL
OK back to work that I despise!
Melis
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Back to "normal" life!
The Holidays are over - Florida was great, Christmas was great and of course we were spoiled rotten as usual! Somehow I know this will change next year when the baby comes!
So this is day 2 back at work - and so far so good, no major melt downs on my part. I think I needed the break. I am going to hope and pray these last 4 months of work FLY by! I am fully aware taking care of a newborn will be more work than here - but its meaningful work, and thats what I live for.
I am really looking forward to our move - sure I don't know where that will take us - but I am excited!
I am 20 weeks this week - the halfway mark! I had an ultrasound this morning - it was amazing. Jonathan actually got to come to this one because he wasn't on work term - it was awesome to see his reactions. I do fear a tiny bit that he may be giving me too much credit for this baby miracle thingy. He keeps saying " its so cool you're doing this - I love you're pregnant body etc etc." that makes me feel wonderful and lovely and all those good things....lets just see how he feels when I lactate all over him and haven't showered in a few days while being covered in baby puke and being extremely sleep deprived! HAHAHAHA - Poor man has no idea whats coming his way. My goodness having a baby with Jonathan is making me fall even more in love with him.
I am really looking forward to being closer to family and friends. Of course we have some wonderful friends here that I can't imagine not seeing all the time - but I am starting to really feel the distance. Michelle came home for the Holidays and I only got to see her for a day! I really love that lady and would enjoy seeing a LOT more of her!
Anyway I should get back to work! I have a countdown calendar to make!
XOXOXO
Melis
So this is day 2 back at work - and so far so good, no major melt downs on my part. I think I needed the break. I am going to hope and pray these last 4 months of work FLY by! I am fully aware taking care of a newborn will be more work than here - but its meaningful work, and thats what I live for.
I am really looking forward to our move - sure I don't know where that will take us - but I am excited!
I am 20 weeks this week - the halfway mark! I had an ultrasound this morning - it was amazing. Jonathan actually got to come to this one because he wasn't on work term - it was awesome to see his reactions. I do fear a tiny bit that he may be giving me too much credit for this baby miracle thingy. He keeps saying " its so cool you're doing this - I love you're pregnant body etc etc." that makes me feel wonderful and lovely and all those good things....lets just see how he feels when I lactate all over him and haven't showered in a few days while being covered in baby puke and being extremely sleep deprived! HAHAHAHA - Poor man has no idea whats coming his way. My goodness having a baby with Jonathan is making me fall even more in love with him.
I am really looking forward to being closer to family and friends. Of course we have some wonderful friends here that I can't imagine not seeing all the time - but I am starting to really feel the distance. Michelle came home for the Holidays and I only got to see her for a day! I really love that lady and would enjoy seeing a LOT more of her!
Anyway I should get back to work! I have a countdown calendar to make!
XOXOXO
Melis
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