Sucked into a time vortex

I do NOT know where the past 12 weeks went to!

My baby is 3 months old today. I am SHOCKED. When I was pregnant the time seemed to crawl by and it took FOREVER. I seriously thought the anticipation would KILL me. Now; however; the days blur together and I find myself waking up to a baby that grew while I was foolish enough to close my eyes for a few brief hours.

I am still loving motherhood. Having Tallulah, or rather being blessed with her, has changed me in ways I could have never predicted. She fills me with so much love and excitement I just might burst at the seems! I have been humbled at how precious and beautiful new life, well all life, really is. I look at Tallulah and I am captivated by her expressions, her huge smile, but the thing that amazes me the very most is how much she looks like her father.I love him, I love her and now I have a little family!

I wish I could say that the transition into parenthood has been flawless...but that would be a lie. It took me 6 weeks to learn how to calm and comfort Tallulah and get her to sleep (actually it took Kim and Christa 6 weeks to make it to London to infuse their wisdom). Jonathan and I am doing an off kind of dance trying to figure out our roles as parents, as spouses, as best friends. I think the reason its hard for us is simply because we've always come so easily to each other, Love and our relationship has always been as easy and natural as breathing - we'll get our groove back.

Tallulah is getting so strong and pulls herself up from lying on her back to standing already...the girl will be walking in no time...scary. She has massive projectile poops that would frighten even an elephant and she sleeps wonderfully.

Finn is also still adapting - I feel so guilty over his loss of attention, what happens when child number TWO comes along, how do parents balance it all out?

Time to have a glass of wine before bed!

Melis