I'm in a SCRUBS episode....kind of

So I figured it out - My brain is working more like and episode of Scrubs. As I am trying to pay attention, my mind leads to another scenario.

For example: Listening to my boss talk about me having to deal with a ridiculous client. I SHOULD be thinking about my plan of action as it relates directly to work....INSTEAD I find myself day dreaming about running a bulldozer through his office. Luckily for everyone involved I don't know where to find a Bulldozer. I am almost positive I could drive one....but where would I find one to rent?

I keep having very vivid dreams about having this baby. Their not scary - I would describe them more as weird, or "special" ; )
Last night I had a dream that the baby could speak to me before it was born - which was a little freaky but it made life easier! haha.

I am so pooped. Winter has taken a lot out of me..I am ready for the SPRING!

Friday - thank GOD!

Well -

Another week mixed with joyful new experiences for Jonathan and I - as well as the daily stress I am finding harder and harder to ignore from the "other" parts of my life. I am hoping some clarification comes soon. I have 78 more days of work - this literally seems like torture to me. On the bright side though I am LOVING being pregnant now!

I feel so much better and I am showing but just not enough to feel like a beached whale. Its exciting. The baby is so fidgety and full of energy it makes me really really happy. Jonathan can finally feel the little him or her through my stomach. Its great. I took out my Belly Ring this week also - I know I know - not a huge deal to others but to me it was. I was hanging on to that belly ring for as long as possible. I know this sounds ridiculous but it is as though that small piece of jewelery on my stomach (that got me grounded 3 times as a teenager) represented who I was - who I am, freedoms and all. Now I am becoming a MOM - someone totally different, and yet the same. Its mind blowing.

Even now its hard for me to comprehend what both of my parents were like as teens / children / newlyweds without kids. I guess before Dawn, Jordyn and I - they were normal everyday people. Go figure!

I am not concerned at ALL about Jonathan's transformation into fatherhood - its something he has been ready for for a long long time. Plus - Since I was 14 Jonathan has proven that he exceeds in EVERYTHING that he attempts (yes its annoying as hell somedays). I see so much love in that wonderful man - and I know he will remain my rock - the coolest man I know and plus - he'll have his drums back as soon as we move - so I am confident he will survive fairly unscathed.

Oh yeah - I seriously HATE tax time. I am stressed to the max - I need a friggen break. I am thinking that its impossible for any middle-class person to ever get ahead in life. I personally blame the liberals - money stealing, tax raising buggers. I think a move out of Ontario would work....hmmmmm....

You know who else sucks - accountants! LOL

OK back to work that I despise!

Melis

Back to "normal" life!

The Holidays are over - Florida was great, Christmas was great and of course we were spoiled rotten as usual! Somehow I know this will change next year when the baby comes!

So this is day 2 back at work - and so far so good, no major melt downs on my part. I think I needed the break. I am going to hope and pray these last 4 months of work FLY by! I am fully aware taking care of a newborn will be more work than here - but its meaningful work, and thats what I live for.

I am really looking forward to our move - sure I don't know where that will take us - but I am excited!

I am 20 weeks this week - the halfway mark! I had an ultrasound this morning - it was amazing. Jonathan actually got to come to this one because he wasn't on work term - it was awesome to see his reactions. I do fear a tiny bit that he may be giving me too much credit for this baby miracle thingy. He keeps saying " its so cool you're doing this - I love you're pregnant body etc etc." that makes me feel wonderful and lovely and all those good things....lets just see how he feels when I lactate all over him and haven't showered in a few days while being covered in baby puke and being extremely sleep deprived! HAHAHAHA - Poor man has no idea whats coming his way. My goodness having a baby with Jonathan is making me fall even more in love with him.

I am really looking forward to being closer to family and friends. Of course we have some wonderful friends here that I can't imagine not seeing all the time - but I am starting to really feel the distance. Michelle came home for the Holidays and I only got to see her for a day! I really love that lady and would enjoy seeing a LOT more of her!

Anyway I should get back to work! I have a countdown calendar to make!

XOXOXO

Melis

Florida

I have been terrible at keeping up over the Holidays - meh - its been a much needed lull from my normal (and boring) toronto Routine.

Christmas was an insane blur (as usual) at trying to see everyone we rarely see and travel from place to place. We left for Florida on the 27th - REALLY early - and couldn't get here fast enough. I have really been enoying this trip with Jonathan and my Dad. Again - learning a lot in the process.

My dad and Jonathan both seem extremely intrigued by my every growing belly. They keep flattering me with tons of compliments. Its been nice.

Today we vegged on the beach all day - I couldn't be happier. I have been dying to relax and thats all we've been doing. I saw 4 Dolphins today too - It feels like thats all I need in life. I've finally been sleeping too - its been awhile.

I've also learned how different each State is - and that the US of A in general is a weird-ass place. the good news in vacationing in the land of over weight white people from snowy places is that nobody gives me a second look when walking down the beach 19 weeks pregnant (5 months on Sunday). Besides - my dad looks more pregnant than me so its acceptable.

Anyway I have to fight to stay awake to Midnight - hanging out in the sun is exhausting!!

Happy New Year Everyone! I KNOW 2009 is going to be far better than 2008!

SNOW~

This week has been insane but GREAT all at the sametime. I love this snow! So its impossible to get anywhere (besides work of course) but it makes it feel more Christmasy! I have terrible at Blogging this week - its been a mixture of being so busy - plus not having anything overly exciting to write about. I wouldn't want to bore my followers (all 4 of you!)

So last night I went to bed kind of late - Jonathan was working at the ACC and I wanted to wait up for him - plus I was reading so I lost all track of time. It took me awhile to fall asleep -then I woke up to a huge crash in our Condo at 3:30 am - I knew almost immediately that it was Jonathan's shave mirror in the shower - however it didn't stop me from swearing a bit - or a lot. It scared the crap out of me. Jonathan responded to the commotion by telling me our baby's first word is going to a bad one and that I should "set a better example". Clearly he knows thats not a safe comment so I was baffled as to why he'd say that- he yells at my belly afterall - then he told me that we needed to start packing. I am thinking he stayed asleep through the whole thing. I admire his amazing ability to sleep through almost anything.

After 4.5 hours of sleep I am exhausted but I somehow feel exhilarated by this gorgeous winer storm! Of course it makes it hard for going out and accomplishing anything - like CHRISTMAS shopping. But I know I will survive....either that or my loved ones are shit out of luck. we'll have to wait and see.

We still do not have our car back which is making Christmas that much more stressful. I just need something to work out easily for me...I am sure it will!

I think I might go outside and do some snow angels on my lunch - its an amazing relaxation technique.

Melis

Monday Monday - I want Friday Friday

Today is Monday. Mondays blow - however this one marks the last week before my two week Christmas Work Hiatus - therefore I am thrilled to be here!

I am still driving the rental Matrix - our car is still not fixed. But I am liking that car! I actually don't really want my car back - its going to be lame to drive now ; (

I cannot WAIT for Christmas to get here! Excitement is an understatement. I have lost all of my funny today - I am blaming it on Hormones - I am happy yet still very edgy. I have a lot of Christmas Shopping still to do ; ( not looking forward to it - I suffer from acute indecisiveness. No joke.

I watched a friend devour A double Big Man and then a regular Big Mac today - I have never been so proud. this cutie-pie makes me look obese and is a doll - I think I should have recorded this and put it on Youtube!

Stolen Food - NEVER ok.

Missing:

The remaining 80% of my Siam Noodle. Was in fridge for me to take to work - however it is now missing. Siam Noodle is a signature dish from "Salad Kind" and is a most amazing treat. I could not finish eating my dinner last night due to my husband making "eating sounds" therefore leaving it most vulnerable for theft.

If you have any information - go ahead and call Crime Stoppers - or send pictures of the culprit to my attention. The perp MUST be brought to justice.

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Its amazing how a missing container of leftover food can be so devastating for a pregnant lady that has been struggling with eating (everything grosses me out - or comes back out my nose in 10 minutes). I feel violated and unloved....I hope I catch the villian. This week has royally sucked my arse - but next week will be better (in the vacation countdown).

I just learned I have to study LEEDS credits to become the resident Green person in my office....I guess I should buy a SHAM-WOW and stop buying paper towels. Its very ironic - we have a very wasteful work environment!

Anyway back to "work"!